My oh my, what a week and a half its been at the casa de Soesbe! Per my last post my bp was skyrocketing out of control, but medication had be prescribed to help. Well at my doctors request I came back after a week of taking the medication and much to the surprise of the nurse practitioner my bp had dropped down to 120/78, much closer to my "normal" and well within the parameters of safe.
With the news of my improved bp, the ob/gyn's office called me back this morning with notes from the man himself that said to go ahead and schedule all the pre-op things and a set a date for surgery. EEEKK!! I'm looking forward to the surgery, but as I sit here I find that I am both nervous and sad as well. Nervous for several reasons. There's always a risk associated with surgery. Then there's the fact hubby has to take off 2 days of work because they don't operate on Fridays, we might be able to slim that down to one day if I can find someone to help me out on Friday. I'm sort of sad too because this is the end of the end of the end with kids. I mean I know we aren't having any more, but now its something about the fact that I can't anymore. Period. The End. Game over. It's a bit sad to me. But all of that is overshadowed by the fact that I will no longer have the yuckiness that surrounds my monthly flow. 3 weeks of the month of nothing but feeling sick, hormones, with a heaping side of pain and misery sandwiched in the middle just for fun. My uterus has been a dear frienemy to me for all of my life. It's also been an amazing giver of life, the protective powerhouse that nourished and supported of all 4 of my children. And so I am sad to see it go, but happy to finally feel good again.
And lastly, over the past 2 weeks the hubs and I have been talking about going back to school. I have about 2-2 1/2 years left to finish the degree I originally started out to achieve. Waaaay way back in the fall of 2003 I started college at Kansas State to get my degree in Agricultural Education. He is undecided what he wants to be when he grows up, but he knows that he doesn't want to continue doing what he's doing in the patch. His body is falling apart out there and we both know he won't make it to retirement age out there. So the plan is, at this moment, to have us both return at the same time. Me full time, him part time on the nights/computer based. Then when I graduate and get a job he will finish off his degree by going back full time. Hopefully at the end of 3-4 years we will both be working in careers we both really enjoy and can retire from.
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