back from denver

we came, we tested, we came home. yes instead of surgery they decided they wanted more tests first so we had to stay an extra day and a half in denver and i am still not fixed. but we should get the answers back soon on all the tests they ran. and then we will reschedule. it was a long dissapointing trip for us.

My surgery

We leave today for Denver. Its kinda scary...my nerves are a jangle now. I'm sure it will be fine, but I am still nervous. We will leave here at 1 that puts us in denver around 7. I have to be at the hospital at 545 am and will be wheeled into surgery at 7. They told me that it will take about 3 hours to do everything, so I should be out by 10 at the very latest. I could sure use some prayers though if you are so moved to do so. We will be home on Weds. and i will post a short blog then if i am up to it. wish me luck.

Daisy's surgery

Just a quick note to let everyone know that Daisy made it through her surgery fine. Thank you to everyone that prayed for her today. Dr said everything looked good and that she shouldn't have anymore ear problems. She came home had a cup of milk and some yogurt with cereal and is now napping so she seems to be fine. Thanks again everyone!!

today in reflection

As I look back on today I realize that one of those fears you have as a parent was eased. Then as I thought about parental fears I thought I would write something for all you newbies out there.

The day you find out your pregnant you begin to have fears. At first its something like will the baby be normal- all ten fingers and toes?? For some its about themselves too...how much weight will I gain ( I never worried about that) what will I have to give up (for me that was smoking)??And then the big one will I/we be a good parent???

Then as you D-day approaches your worries become more present. What will the labor be like, can I do it, will I need an operation, what if something goes wrong??

Its amazing how within minutes of bringing a new life into the world all those short sited fears suddenly melt away to be replaced by an entirely new set of fears and how some of the old ones get intensified. But let me tell you the question "will I be or am I a good parent?" that question never goes away. Suddenly though as you gaze as your portrait of perfection you become your parents. How do we instill good morals and judgement, what kind of person will you grow up to be, how can I protect you from all of ulgy and bad things in the world?

Then you come home and the questions get short sighted again. Will I make it through the night becomes a constant question. How do I do this or that? Is that normal? What are you thinking? Do you like me?

As your baby grows and becomes their own person some fears are eased and some intensify. One of your biggest fears as your baby reaches school age is "will the other kids like him/her, will she/he have any friends."

That was my fear for Bay. Anyone that's met her will tell you she has an awesome personality and is outgoing and friendly. But the problem with her is she is OVERLY friendly...like in your face. Which is fairly intimidating for most young children, but as I saw that she has friends and is well like by most of her classmates my fears were put to rest today.

I guess as parents we never stop worrying-its built in to our DNA.

yay for bay!!!!

baylie had her very first ever lunch at school...her first school lunch. well unless the food improved i'm sorry about that for her. BUT that means she got to spend an extra hour at school and see how other kids eat! according to her teacher baylie did awsome with everything! and her circle time is getting better! AND if the swarm of girls excited to see her says anything she has made several friends!! so i am so very pleased, proud, and happy for my baylie renee!!!!
this was supposed to be a pic to show her wild woman hair, but despite that and the food covered face (right before bath time) it actually came out cute! I told her to say "cheese" and she replied "samich!" for those that dont speak toddleresse that would be her thinking of a "cheese sandwich"

i can't believe she did that....!

what did she do that i can't believe, which she is it? Daisy decided to flush my phone down the potty...yeah yeah laugh all you want but that extra $$ was supposed to be for james to finish the truck-yes i have insurance on the phone but its still 50 out of pocket. and now with daisy ear surg. on friday and mine on tues plus 2 nites in denver in a hotel for james and food and gas that 50 kinda hurts us. but i haven't been able to dry it out to working so far i am just soooo mad at her for doing that! like i needed another bill. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

early summer fun for everyone!

Good news, Baylie gets an hour added to her school time. That makes it so that she's only 1 hour off from the whole half day. Next good news, Daisy decided she finally wanted to walk! (yes i know she's almost 18 months and just now started, but you have to let them decide when they're ready!!) okay next up is just a little early summer fun. and the last video is of a finally walking daisy! she's my little weeble wobble!!


baylie's inspecting the dirt in the sand box very closely. she had to have the cap on i dunno why cuz it was like 80 out!


she's such a poser...in a good way!



happy! good gosh is she a cutie!!!!

playing in the dirt-it was chilly out that day