hey people where are the updates??

So there are a few of you that read my blog, trust me I read yours as well. So I know you all lead exciting busy lives but I have to say "HEY YOU GUYS, WHERE DID ALL THE UPDATES GO??!!" Beth, I really look forward to your updates: who's walking and talking and causing trouble? How are you feeling, how is the pregnancy going, how bout some pictures of you and the kiddos?! I have no email for anyone so I can't just send one off! Jess, how are you and the boys, how bout some more pics of them and you? Any closer to coming home?? Jami love, I know you feel like I do...yuck!...but hey were are your tummy pics and some updated ones of Madi. Jee whiz I feel so out of touch with everyone...so frustrating...................

PS. since I am talking about updates quickly I will say everyone in my house is doing fine, my camera is still broken, James got a job yesterday with TSI (yay) which means I am back to being a stay at home mom. ttfn

Seeking Advice from all Moms!

Hi everyone, I am looking for a breast pump. I need advice as to a good one for large busts. I need an electric one because of the large bust thing. It would also be a good thing if it didn't break the bank. I just don't know what to buy...something with lots of suction for sure and I dont know what.... help!

taking it week by week

well i am 8 weeks into baby #3, and so far its been rocky. the morning sickness is killer with this one and it seems to be a VERY picky eater because i can only eat a few things so long as they sound good at that moment. and what i've come to realize is that it may sound good before and during the cooking process but more often than not after its done and ready to eat it no long is appealing to me. but with luck i should only have about 4 more weeks of this particular brand of torture. but since my camera is broken i have no way to post the pictures from the last ultrasound. but what i can do (and i think its so neat that they can do this) is give you a picture of someone elses baby at this week in developement so you can see inside the womb. This site is so cool. grr okay i cant get the picture to upload, but if you follow the link and go to "far along" then put in your due date or mine (may 20, 2010) it will take you to a page that is soooo neat. ttfn

Make a pregnancy ticker

#3

I do have pics from this appt. but there isn't much you can see with the untrained eye. I will try to get those up later. We found out that I'm farther along than I thought I was but still not as far as the charts say I should be. I am exactly 7 weeks today, giving me an actual due date (yay!) of May 20, 2010. We hope we have a healthy baby-we got to see the little heart fluttering away in there (YAY again) but honestly we would really like a boy this time. My dr remarked on the fact that i lost about 5 lbs from last tuesday...he called it a heck of a weight loss program but not for long! anyway, it was nice to have the good news, now maybe i can sleep alittle at night now. my next appt is on the 28th of this month, there shouldnt be much to report at that one, just a heart beat...which as of today was 138. and if youre wondering that is about 30 beats less than either of the girls were at that same age.

A quick post

for those who dont know and didnt pay attention to our new heading, we are expecting child #3. the exact due date is unknown right now as my last monthly visity does not seem to corrispond to time of conception as it normally would. i have another ultrasound this week with dr beck and hopefully we can see more than we did last week. he is fairly optimistic that even though the timing is off that the pregnancy will go normally. although he did mention that because mine is so early that i should know that 45% off all pregnancies at this stage end in misscarriage. but being as i've had two normal healthy ones he thinks things will be fine. again we will know more on the 1st. if you want my guess at a due date i would say the end of may to the beginning of june.

Baylie tested positive on monday for influenza a...we will know in a couple weeks if its h1n1 (swine flu). she is trying to recover from that. but as i type james is at the clinic with her because we are seeing little progress and she is over half way through the medication. my worry is pneumonia. * update* not pneumonia.

I am sick as well. I have bronchitis and an upper respiratory infection. normally they would give me an inhaled steriod to help but they can't becuase of #3. so i am stuck with tylenol, psuedaphedrine, and robitussin (yucky!!). Sleep has been difficult becuase baylie has been ill and nights are hardest on her.

James and daisy remain well. apparently so far daisy seems to have a super human immune system. she shares everything with baylie and hasnt even come down with the sniffles. James continues the hunt for a job. i continue to sub...which is finally starting to pick up. but i really must go lay down now, i am hurting something fierce. so ttfn

Given Freely

Something given freely with no string or expectations attached can sometimes bring you more than you ever thought possible. But when love is given freely (and love comes in many forms) it is the most beautiful and touching thing ever. If you dont know about our situation right now its not great. James and I as a couple are fine, but he lost his job 3 weeks ago and hasn't been able to find anything yet, so our financial situation is grave bordering on dire. I have been stressing on how we are going to make our bills, buy food, and the clothes that Baylie needed for the winter. By the generosity of someone very special to me (she's been like a sister for almost 17 years because her sister may as well be mine, and her family 'adopted' me a long time ago) a huge monster sized weight has been lifted off my shoulders in the form of clothes for my kids. She called it a trade because we pass on all of our outgrown kids clothes to her. I call it the best gift I think I may ever have had. Words do not even begin to express the gratitude I have for her and her husband. I never thought that the love we gave to her and her family in the form of hand-me-down clothes would have ever come to this- I hoped it wouldn't accutally. But somethings are out of our control. So once more for you (and you know who you are) thank you for love given so freely and selflessly that I only hope one day I can, in some way, repay it to you (and more than just hand-me-down clothes). I want you and your family to know that I have always loved you and held you close to me in my heart, and though you didn't need or have to do what you did, you are even more special to me now then I ever could have known you would be. Thank you.

God's Hands

I know that God's hands are leading us and guiding us to where he wants us to be. But sometimes it feels like he's taking us way off the beaten path. The unfamiliar is scary and dark. And sometimes it feels like no matter how hard you try to get back to the light sunny path you liked so well that God's hands block every attempt. I know He never gives us more than we can handle, but right now it feels like He's testing the very boundary of that. Like he wants to make us say uncle over and over even though we are already on our knees crying for help. That which doesn't kill us only makes us stronger. I believe that sentence, but how close to death do you have to be to come out stronger. Nothing has worked out the way we hoped for, every inch we've gained since marriage has been painstaking and hard, just when we feel like we can make to the next inch we always get knocked back a foot. Lately it feels like we were really starting to climb that mountain and God's hands shoved us back down, into a cave we didn't even know existed. There seems to be no way to climb the walls of this cave, there's no rope, no hidden trap door, no ladder, and no one standing over us with an outstretched hand to help us back up. What do you do when you can't pay your bills, can barely put food on the table, the government won't help because of the work you've already done, you have to put tags on the one and only vehicle you have that runs, and your kids need new clothes and shoes. No matter how hard we look we can't find him a job, mine is as needed and I only get paid once a month, so all the work I do this month I get paid for next month. We cant make the bills we have due at the end of this month, and if we don't pay them on time we will never get caught back up. Baylie has dental work scheduled for next month that we can't pay for because we have no insurance now. I feel so lost and mad and frustrated, I can't even afford the medication I need to keep my stomach feeling okay after that surgery...which I can't afford to pay for now...even the little insurance wont cover. I feel like we are sinking and I can't stop it from happening it just is and that God, well I don't know what He wants from us yet.